i m going to penang to visit my mOm tomorro...we hav lost contact for three years...i scare i cant even recognise her when i see her...i cant wait to meet her...hOpe tat the ways she treat me later do not disappointing me...hOpe tat our relationship can be improve.hOwever,i hav regret..i felt sOrry for blaming her before...as her child,i shouldnt do so.i m sorry.but actually i lOve her...this is the truth...pretending to say tat she is not important in mylife at all.i should admit tat i am unhappy without her in my life...i appreciate love from her...i care actually...i really do...